National Trauma: A Message From Zachor and Amalek
Updated: Feb 13
When terrible things happen, it’s natural to react intensely. It can be a tremendous challenge to even imagine life beyond the event and moving forward into “regular life”. Two extreme but common coping mechanisms include obsession and repression.
Obsession is when our minds become preoccupied with the experience to the point where it takes up more brain space than we want it to, and interferes with our desired functioning. This is understandable because when there's been a great loss or trauma, it can be hard to thinking about anything else.
Repression is when our brains trivialize or ignore the incident or its impact, and then it can affect us indirectly or in more subtle ways. This too is understandable- sometimes, the emotional (and/or physical) pain is so great, that our conscious self disassociates from the intolerability of it.
A more therapeutic and moderate alternative would be to eventually process and integrate the experience and its effects, in a way that honors the personal relationship to it, but then provides the opportunity to eventually transcend it. When this happens, we no longer need to continually be defined primarily by the pain. This is much easier said than done, but it begins with a clear vision of the goal.
A simple way to remember this that we trade obsessing and repressing for processing.
This week we stand in shul and observe a commandment to recall a national trauma. It wasn’t our only military blow, but it was, in a way, our first. We were an infant nation, freshly birthed from the labor pains of slavery and miraculous redemption. Just finding our footing, beginning to trust the possibility of living free, of following G-d into the desert, and finally starting to believe that we would be ok. And then, we weren’t.
It was considered such a big deal, that we are commanded to talk about and remember it regularly. It’s a curious thing this commandment. On the one hand, the commandment begins with the word “remember”- zachor. Yet the goal seems to be to eradicate the memory- “timcheh.”
Are we meant to remember and not forget, or to erase?
Clearly the goal is some sort of synthesis. To incorporate the event into our national history, our collective memory, in a way that provides a legacy. I was thinking that a simple textual analysis of these verses, noting the sequence, yields psychological insight into this seemingly paradoxical process:
“Remember what Amalek did to you… ”
Remember- don’t deny or repress. The first step to processing what happened is to acknowledge it. Speak it out; as Dr Dan Siegel teaches, if you can name it, you can tame it.
“What [they] did to you”:
A major feature of post-trauma is self-blame, sometimes explicitly narrated by the perpetrator, sometimes internalized by the survivor. But an important element of healing is realizing and reassigning misplaced blame. This happened to you when someone else took advantage of your vulnerability.
“On the way, when you left Egypt.”
Note the context- the where and when of the story. Another feature of traumatic memory is the excruciating detail, the flashbacks and triggers, pulling the past time and place into the here and now, where it can poison the present and the future. Empowered processing includes filing it in correct autobiographical chronology, so it doesn’t leak all over the newer chapters.
“That they coldly/ happened to you on the way, preying on the weak, tired, and strained, irreverent [disconnected from force of faith].”
Trauma is messy; cruelty is cold. Understanding the source, remembering and consciously recalling context clues and feelings can help us understand the susceptibility of that situation and what happened, and contrast it with the current safety and empowerment. This can also serve to eventually shrink the impact and clear space for a resilient future.
“And when G-d gives you rest from surrounding enemies, in your inherited land,”
Reorienting to the present time and place allows us to recognize and reinforce the hope, security and safety of no longer being in danger, of no longer needing to hold and feel the pain. We no longer need to fight, flight, or freeze. We can settle into the promised land, surrounded by prosperity and love. Access the promised land of deliverance, the holding environment, be free from the affliction. It’s over, you’re ok now.
“Negate the memory of Amalek from under the Heavens”-
By doing all this, the acknowledgement, the feeling, the focus, the context, the reassignment, the transcendence, the re-centering of body and mind into the present time and safer place, that itself is the start of healing. That experience negates and shrinks the potency of the memory from perpetuating its toxic effect anymore.
“Don’t forget” –
Healing doesn’t mean ignoring. Integrating the experience, the empirical demonstration of strength, the pain that was survived, the capacity of evil, and the triumph of good, allows for deeper living. It is something that once happened but now is over and we made it. By remembering in this way, in this framework- tested, wiser, bolder, that’s how we overcome the darkness. We don’t capitulate to the nightmare- we rise strong, battle scars and all. Never Again.
Remember, reframe, eradicate, but don’t forget.